You should never let any one tell you who you are i had a very bad run in with some over my love life someone who barely knows me i let my temper get the best of me that's very true. I let a complete stranger make me feel pathetic. Him telling me that the only kind of man i would attract would be one that would abuse me. I was on the phone with a good friend at the time crying hearing her tell me if i was the kind of girl he was describing she would have told me by now. I had to get that story out of my system.
The important story in my life is the one when i got saved. It was a Sunday morning i went to the alter with one of my best friends Tracy she prayed with me in that moment i was saved. All the pain and anger and heartache of the past two years was taken away the shame was gone. I was living the way that a person shouldn't drinking getting involved with men i shouldn't hanging around people I thought were friends.
The people that knew me before September the 14 2008 can tell you that i have changed but the important thing is that i know i have changed while i still don't know everything about myself i know this much i love God with all my heart . I Love my friends. I love My books love them. I love music. i love food. I have a good family even though they are all a little of their rockers very loud very outspoken very very honest which is where i get it from.
I refuse to give anyone else control over my emotions. I try so hard to have the attitude that it doesn't matter what anyone thinks sometimes i forgot i am human and i breakdown a little. Something else that was brought up to me today. I have never been in love never not once thought i was but it was just infatuation i still got my heartbroken just the same.
I do beleive on my good days and even in my bad moments well most of them that God is going to send me somebody. And when i dont believe it 2 of my very best friends do and sometimes their faith strengthns me.
Todays lesson dont listen to some fool tell you how awful you sound when you say your lonely and your cat ran off they dont have to listen to his credit he delted me from his friends list. Which for the best. He doesnt know me and I dont care to know him.
Church is tonight maybe i will learn something if i put my heart into it i am sure I will.
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