Tonight again

I have tried all day of thinking of something to say tonight. So here goes nothing or anything maybe everything. There is a reason I am alone and I mean alone Just me and God when I let Him in. Something is about to happen in my life something major whether its good or bad i don't know but i can feel it tonight. I would love a sign but i have been told I have to show God something first so i am going to show him faith fullness which is what he is requiring of me at the moment. When it comes to men i have a tendency to lust for intimacy and i know that is something God insits to wait to marriage. But i long for love and to be held. I want someone to go dancing with. Someone to be with someone to talk to at night before i go to bed someone to see first thing in the morning Someone to share my life with. That is a desire I believe God has put in me. I am grieving for this which i shouldnt be it will come in Gods timing and he will make it the way it should be. So i about to head to bed with just me and jesus someone i need to spend more time with me in my prayers i will ask God to fill up my emptyness. My cat has never come back its been a week i had a dream she come back last night hungry maybe she will show up. To my beloved friends have a good night and a great weekend.