Tonight

Psalm 13
How long will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide you face from me?
How long must i wrestle with my thoughts and every day have sorrow in my heart how long will my enemy triumph over me?
Look on me and awns er O lord my God
give light to my eyes or i will sleep in death my enemy will say i have overcome him and my foes will rejoice when i fall
But I trust in your unfailing love my heart rejoices in your salvation i will sing to the lord for he has been good to me.

I have been to wrapped in the world today it has taken me away from God and it has taken my peace i was seeking God when i came upon this psalm it has comforted my the past few days. I often feel forgotten and once when i was in this particular state i was looking through my book order and a book stood out to me it was called God has not forgotten about you it helped me to know he has still kept me in his thoughts which i have been told I always am. I believe God spoke to me through this letting me know I still matter.

I have been having having problems lately with faith my dear friend Billie jean has been counseling me on this saying that is the one thing that God requires from us.
I have been having problems with two things my cat being missing i have to have the faith that if it is meant to be God will send her back to me .

And the other thing this blog will be based on Me being single I have to believe that the desire in my heart for romantic love is given to me by God and that he will send somebody when it is time when he is ready and when I am ready.

I have begun trying to actively loose wait i have lost 81 pounds without even trying I want to loose another 71 pounds I have begun walking drinking more water and eating better i will try to walk 2 miles a day except when it is raining . I will try to cut back on my sugar intake me being a prediabteic,I will let you know in future blogs how my weight lost is going

I am going to let you go tonight i have to get supper I have only ate once today and it wasn't healthy.

I am going to end this by saying i love my father very much and i missed him fourth of July weekend God willing if were both still around i will be with him next fourth of July .