Whats going on tonight

I went to Memphis for a week. I had a good time except i stayed to long and had a panic attack. It was also pointed out to me that a person that i thought was my friend isn't or at least that is the way it seems. Maybe i should talk to her first and see what is going on. It just seems that when someone claims to be your friend and care about you they would make time for you even if its only a few days a week not just when you need their help for something. I love her dearly she is like a sister to me. I don't think she feels the same way. So i will have to mourn this lost and hope i don't loose my job over it which i love dearly. I hope if this person is reading it she doesn't get to upset. I love her and don't want to loose her as a friend if she is a friend at all. or if this is strictly business. Also another thing that has upset me Supernatural is putting Paris Hilton on there show in this fifth episode it is my favorite show and this has upset me its like they are turning into a joke. But i need rest and i will get it after i visit with my best friend the one that made time to come see me tonight even though it is late and her curfew is coming up soon.